Last Tuesday.....

So, in the middle of all my ranting about health care and retinopathy, I forgot to mention that my days at my current job are limited. This is a good thing as I feel that I've exhausted the learning curve here. I will start a new job with a trade association in August and I am soooo ready for a week off! I plan on relaxing, reading, and possibly a massage. So, today is my last Tuesday in my current position.

On other fronts, I went to my retinopathist last Thursday. The dreaded words of "we have to do more laser" were spoken, but I expected those. I knew that the swelling would go down, but there would still be vessels back there that shouldn't be. Unfortunately, my doc also told me he found new places. SH*T!! That's all I could think (since I have a knack for profanity in times of crisis). So, in my typical fashion of trying to cover my feelings, I thanked the doctor and said that he really wasn't telling me anything I didn't expect..... under it all, I wanted to cry. But, I didn't. Ok, I did........ but that was three hours later when I was alone at my desk at work.

So, in my selfish quest to have my week between jobs be stress-free and totally revolving around me, I scheduled my eye surgery for Thursday afternoon. Hey, I've got about seven days of PTO stored, so I can take the afternoon off. Not to mention that tomorrow I'm going to see my diabetic specialist about my Omnipod.

Actually, not only am I going to talk about the Omnipod, I'm going to talk about my last A1c, which I opt not to tell you the number because it's higher than I'd like it to be. Why? I don't know. Life is full of stress. Maybe I don't manage mine well......... I think I do........ I appear to manage it to others (besides my husband who sees the true me, mostly). Can you just walk into the docs office and say " I don't know what went wrong in the past few months? I just want a holiday from it all?" Actually, with my doc, you probably can and I probably will. I've learned from past experience, it's better to try to be as honest as you can with the endocrinologist. I do hope that she views the Omnipod as a good change for me. I do.

So, that's a brief wrap up from where I am now. Oh, I have implemented the "bad bag" at home with my son. I don't know what it is, but he is totally learning some habits that change him from the world's cutest little kid into a raving maniac. He is fond of saying no, but he's yelling, too. I can tolerate some of it, but I also don't want to have the teachers complaining about it. The "bad bag" is a brown paper bag where I place one of his coveted matchbox cars in if I get a report of yelling at school or if he does it at home. We've told him he can earn the cars back if he behaves better. Will this work? I don't know. There already has been one car casualty to the "bad bag"!!!!